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The Heir & The Spare: Growing up as a Scapegoat Child

Family is supposed to be a safe haven, a place where every child feels valued and loved unconditionally. Yet, in some families, children are categorized into rigid roles, often falling into a hierarchy where one child is considered the "heir" and another, sadly, becomes the "spare." This isn't merely favoritism; it's a deeply rooted toxic dynamic that shapes the lives of both children. But it’s the "spare" or scapegoat child who frequently bears the brunt of this setup, enduring constant emotional mistreatment that leaves lasting scars.



The heir-and-spare mentality can sound like something from a royal lineage, where one child is chosen to carry on the family legacy and the other is simply… extra. This isn’t just an outdated relic, though; it’s an all-too-common experience in modern families that operate under toxic dynamics, and in some families, it is purely something determined by gender and not capability. For the heir, life may not necessarily be easy—they often face immense pressure to meet expectations—but they are undoubtedly cherished. They are celebrated, praised, and given resources to succeed. Meanwhile, the spare child exists in the family almost as an afterthought. This child is often overlooked, dismissed, and sometimes treated as the family scapegoat, absorbing all the blame, guilt, and frustration of the household. The heir will get everything at their whim, while the spare, will always have to fight a losing battle to prove their worth and yet, constantly find themselves getting the shorter end of the stick.


Imagine growing up as this spare child. From an early age, you’re constantly compared to the heir, always falling short in some way. You hear things like, “Why can’t you be more like your sibling?” or “Your sibling would have done better.” This constant comparison isn’t just discouraging; it’s deeply wounding. It sends an unspoken message that you will never measure up, no matter what you do. Every achievement, every effort, seems to pale in comparison to the heir's existence, as if your best will never be good enough.


For the spare child, love and approval often feel like things they need to earn. Unlike the heir, who might be accepted simply for existing, the spare child is made to feel as though love is conditional. They are told—either directly or subtly—that they need to behave a certain way, achieve a certain thing, or change a core part of who they are to be worthy of affection. The words “if only you tried harder” or “maybe then we’d be proud of you” linger, leaving an emotional wound that can be difficult to heal. This kind of conditional love is profoundly damaging because it reinforces the idea that worthiness is something they’ll never quite reach.


Gaslighting is also a common tactic in families like this. If the spare child tries to speak up about feeling unfairly treated, they’re often told they’re “too sensitive” or “making things up.” By constantly invalidating their experiences, toxic families manipulate the spare child into doubting their own perceptions and emotions. Over time, they begin to mistrust their feelings and reality, often blaming themselves for their unhappiness. This gaslighting creates a cycle where the spare child becomes trapped, unable to fully process or express the pain they feel.


In many cases, the spare child also becomes the family scapegoat—the designated bearer of blame for all the problems and tensions in the household. Whenever there’s an issue, from small misunderstandings to larger family conflicts, the scapegoat is the one who gets blamed. Family members pile their frustrations onto this child, making them believe that they’re the source of every family issue. The scapegoat internalizes these accusations, carrying a sense of guilt and shame that they’re “the problem,” even when they’re innocent.


This scapegoating often results in isolation within the family unit. The spare child may be excluded from family gatherings or treated as an outsider in their own home. Toxic families push the scapegoat to the margins, sending a message that they don’t really belong. This isolation intensifies feelings of rejection, loneliness, and worthlessness, creating a cycle where the child starts to believe they deserve this mistreatment. They might be punished more harshly than the heir or face constant scrutiny, reinforcing the idea that they’re inherently flawed or inadequate.


Growing up as the spare or scapegoat leaves deep, lasting scars. Many children in this role carry these emotional wounds into adulthood, affecting their self-worth, relationships, and mental health. It’s hard to shake off years of conditioning that drilled into them the notion that they’re not enough. This constant rejection and belittlement cultivate low self-esteem, making them feel as though they’ll never be worthy of love or success. They often struggle with feelings of inadequacy, believing that they’re destined to always fall short.


Moreover, trust becomes a challenging issue. When you’ve grown up in an environment where manipulation, blame, and gaslighting were routine, it’s hard to fully trust others. Scapegoated children frequently fear intimacy, worry about betrayal, and often fall into patterns of self-sabotage in their relationships. In their minds, they may believe that opening up or letting someone in will only lead to hurt or disappointment.


Many scapegoated children develop perfectionistic tendencies, feeling the need to prove themselves as “good enough.” They become people-pleasers, constantly bending over backward to gain approval, often at the expense of their own needs and boundaries. This people-pleasing habit is an attempt to fill the void left by years of conditional love. Yet, no matter how much they give, it never seems to satisfy that lingering feeling of inadequacy that stems from their family role.


The emotional impact of growing up as the family spare or scapegoat can even result in mental health challenges like anxiety, depression, and complex PTSD (C-PTSD). These mental health struggles are not merely reactions to difficult childhood experiences; they are often the result of prolonged emotional abuse. The trauma becomes deeply embedded, affecting how they see themselves and navigate the world. Healing can be a long and difficult journey, often requiring therapy and a strong support system.


Recovering from an upbringing which is so toxic starts with acknowledging the reality of what was experienced. Recognizing the emotional abuse for what it was is the first step in breaking free. Therapy or counseling can be invaluable, helping survivors process the trauma and rebuild a healthy sense of self. Through therapy, they can learn to set boundaries, challenge negative beliefs about themselves, and learn that they are worthy of love just as they are.


Setting boundaries with toxic family members is essential for healing. For some, this might mean reducing contact, limiting conversations, or in some cases, going no-contact altogether. This boundary-setting helps protect against continued harm, creating a safe space for the spare child to finally start putting themselves first. It also signals a refusal to play the scapegoat role any longer, breaking the cycle of emotional abuse.


It’s crucial for former scapegoats to actively challenge the negative beliefs instilled in them. After years of being told they’re “not enough” or “a problem,” this can be difficult. But by focusing on their strengths, celebrating small successes, and surrounding themselves with positive people, they can begin to rebuild a more positive self-image. They deserve to know that they are more than the role they were forced to play in a toxic family.


Survivors of this heir-and-spare dynamic deserve to live a life rooted in self-acceptance and resilience. Although healing is a challenging journey, it’s one that can ultimately lead to peace, self-love, and the realization that they are, and always were, enough.


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Written by: Vedica Podar



April, 2024


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